When you have nothing to say, but end up saying something after all

I wish I was one of those people who could just blog about anything and everything, all the time. But instead I go for weeks between posts because I don't have anything to say.

I always want to write something, but I just don't know what. I wonder if writing about my dating life will become monotonous because it's all I seem to do. Although, it's not, of course, but I don't want anyone to think that's all I have going for me; although I suppose we are talking about the single life of a 30-something gal. I wonder if writing about the interesting people I come in contact with each day on public transport will take up enough lines to make a decent post and I wonder if the story of trying a new recipe, it going horribly wrong and having to bake another, from an old favourite recipe that ends up turning out perfectly, as usual, is the type of thing people are looking for? So then I spend hours trawling other people's blogs trying to find inspiration, but still can't find that 'thing' to talk about.

I wish I was one of those people who are happy to park in the furtherest car park from the entrance to the shops, and I wish I was one of those people who liked to walk everywhere. I wish I had more money and didn't have to do research for accommodation for my upcoming trip and could just book something now. I wish I could drink more than 2 glasses and I wish I could find 1 man, like the last 2 but mooshed together.

I wish I had a full garden full of flowers but instead I bought a little apartment with no garden and I have a borrowed piece of dirt in a communal garden with 3 yellow tulips and 6 more to flower. I wish I had a little dog to keep me company, and to take walking but instead I have no backyard but a lovely little apartment with polished floorboards and patio overlooking the pool.

So, for the time being, my life consists of blog posts every once in a while; enjoying the lovely spring weather that Perth has to offer while pottering around in my 9 tulip garden and getting excited each day that another one flowers. I am focusing on walking 10,000 steps a day (10,000 steps a day keeps the doctor away) and eating healthy and going on a 'bank diet'. My dating days are still on going. By no means am I the desperate and dateless serial dater I dread and often see out there, I am the girl who is seriously looking for Mr Right, not just Mr Right Now. So if that means I have to meet a 'few toads' before I find my prince, then so be it, that is what I will do. I am the girl who is always looking for a challenge, the girl who feels she's done as much as she can in her current role and is ready to move on to bigger and better things. I am the girl who is content with life, but always looking for more; always bored but never bored at the same time.

I am that girl you see at a cafe, sitting and reading on her own, oblivious to the looks of envy around her; wishing you were more like her. I am the girl I have always wanted to be, with a little room left for improvement.

Me, Myself & I

It's been a while since I've written to you, Blogworld. I haven't been feeling like I've had a lot to say, although I've been so busy at the same time. I'm feeling very disillusioned about a number of things at the moment, so today I'm having a Me Day.

This Me Day has been coming for a while but I just haven't had time because of other things going on; busy doing something or other. So today I'm doing a few of my favourite things.

Firstly, to sleep in. Check. Usually I can't sleep in past 7.30am and lately I've been waking up at 5.30am; but today I woke at 5.30am and then went back to sleep...until 9.30am! And I'm so proud of me :)

Secondly, to listen to a few of my favourite tunes. Check. I've just sat down to write to you after updating my iTunes so I can have a bit of 'zone out' time and listen to my new fave tunes while I write to you; therapeutic, as I've said before.

Unfortunately, I have to do a couple of jobs too. So after my sleep in I chucked a load of washing on. I really need to get my bedroom/laundry issue sorted. For those of you who know me will know that I'm a tidy freak in the rest of my house, and will be surprised to learn that my bedroom isn't the same. I like it to be tidy and my bed never goes unmade, but I'm not so great at putting my clothes away. So at the moment I've got clothes hanging over my bed posts, washing basket etc, which need to be sorted, and clean clothes in baskets to be folded and ironed and put away. Fingers crossed I can get motivated enough to sort this out today because this could be one of the reasons my life feels in disarray at the moment. I just need the motivation to do it....

Now back to the good me things. I love the MasterChef and My Kitchen Rules series' and I've missed quite a few of the MC shows over the last few weeks, so today I want to catch up on a couple of my favourite episodes - first one being the Friday night Master Class. I love the show, and it gets me all inspired to cook but watching the stress levels and blubbering contestants isn't really doing it for this season. So Master Class is a good episode to catch up on what was cooked during the week, but cooked the real way, by professionals, with no stress. And then of course, I want to watch my other favourite show of the week, Grey's Anatomy. Lately with everything that has been going on I've just been too tired to stay up to 9.30pm to finish watching the whole episode, as I've been going to bed at 8.30pm.

I also want to make my first ever Moussaka, so that's dinner sorted. This comes from watching MasterChef of course, and whenever they do the Invention Test and have to make something up out of the few ingredients they are given, I freak out as to what I would make if I was on the show. Not so good at on the spot decisions like that. So I have come up with this little game of making something semi normal each week that I haven't made before, so if I'm ever in that situation (which is very unlikely due to the stress levels and my non ability to handle stress) I want to be able to cook a few dishes that 'everyone' seems to be able to make, except me (at least I'll know what the ingredients are!). The only other MC dish I've had time to make since the series started, this year is the Donna Hay Pavlova, which didn't work out quite like it was meant to. But I've got a few recipes printed off in my file that I want to make...soon.

The last on my list for today is to take my book and a couple of magazines I subscribe to but haven't had time to read yet, to my fave little cafe and sit and have a cup of tea (and maybe a piece of cake), watch the world go by as I flick through my magazines and read a chapter or so of my book. I always seem to have a book on the go, and I've got a pile of books to read from friends who have passed on a good read, but I never find a lot of time to sit and read except for the 20 mins to and from work each day, so it takes me a while to read a book, hence I love it when I find time to sit for an hour or so and read, enough time to get engrossed in someone elses life and have a break from my own.

So now that I've finished my first therapeutic Me Day task of writing to you, I'm off to hang out my washing and watch Master Chef.

See you again soon, C xx